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An Introduction to What Is to Come

August 23rd, 2017 by ashliecrooks

I started this blog more as a way to learn WordPress & expand on my PHP knowledge. I planned on occasionally writing about live music, video games, my cat, and food/cooking, since those are basically my favoritest things ever.

But the world outside is on fire and I am being called to witness it.


verb (used without object)
5. to bear witness; testify; give or afford evidence.

6. an individual who, being present, personally sees or perceives
a thing; a beholder, spectator, or eyewitness.
7. a person or thing that affords evidence.

Witness is an interesting word because it’s both a verb and a noun. One can witness by seeing and by testifying about what you’ve seen (both verbs), and in that manner one becomes a witness (noun).

The idea of witnessing is not unfamiliar to me because of my upbringing in the fundamentalist church of Christ (little ‘c’ church is not a mistake). My paternal grandfather was a minister at a church he founded in Montana. I never met the man because he died just four months before I was born. If he were alive I would hope I could ask him how he feels about Christianity today, but I have my suspicions about how he would feel based on my uncle who took over the church. I witnessed my uncle preach on a Sunday about God instructing the Israelites to care for the refugees among them and then later exhibit anti-Muslim and -immigrant sentiments. Where is the love God demanded?

This blog will highlight some of my thoughts on religion. Theologically I identify as a Unitarian Universalist and believe in the Seven Principles:

  1. 1st Principle: The inherent worth and dignity of every person;
  2. 2nd Principle: Justice, equity and compassion in human relations;
  3. 3rd Principle: Acceptance of one another and encouragement to spiritual growth in our congregations;
  4. 4th Principle: A free and responsible search for truth and meaning;
  5. 5th Principle: The right of conscience and the use of the democratic process within our congregations and in society at large;
  6. 6th Principle: The goal of world community with peace, liberty, and justice for all;
  7. 7th Principle: Respect for the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part.

So much of UU-ism calls to the “Social Justice Warrior” in me. But lately, I’ve felt a calling back to Jesus, and to the feeling of leaving church on Sundays with a fire in my belly. Not a calling back to god, because I can’t believe in a god that allows suffering in his name that we have seen throughout history. I refuse to believe in a self-serving god that would allow suffering to show how great he is because fuck that. (Oh, did I mention I curse? Did you know that science says people who curse are more intelligent? True fact so get used to it.)

If the idea of believing in Jesus but not god confuses you, you’re not the only one. It confuses me greatly that I can hold these beliefs simultaneously. However the idea of Christian atheism isn’t a new one which means there already exists scholarly and philosophical pieces. As I’ve found writing helps me figure things out, you’ll likely see some analysis of atheistic Christianity to come as I read.

Expect to see pieces about smashing white supremacy and explaining white privilege alongside pieces on why Mass Effect 3 is the best in the series and how my keto diet is going.

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself;
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)
– Walt Whitman

One thought on "An Introduction to What Is to Come"

Brianna Ryan wrote on

I think if you have seen Jesus you have seen the Father. If you love Jesus but not the Father then you just have misunderstood the Father. I know I did for a long time, and I assume the reason there aren’t more believers is because people don’t look at Jesus to see God, they only know what they’ve been told about Him, or have read pieces of the Bible but not really studied it to understand it.

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